Am I a Theologian?
When does one have the right to say the words: I am a theologian ? I will confess I even spelled the word wrong when I typed it for this writing. (Who would have thought there was an 'i' in it?) But am I a theologian anyway? The definitions say that one must be learned, expert even, before they are considered a theologian. But is one born a theologian? I don't ever remember a time when I wasn't aware of the ideas about life after death and its implications for life before it. My earliest memories are of death. Not the experiencing of it - no family member died until I was much older - but the awareness of it. I was around three when I have my earliest memories of them, but the memories include an awareness that they had been happening for some time. Panic attacks about death several times over the course of years (for what reasons, I cannot even speculate) imprinted upon me a deep early questioning about faith and the afterlife....